March is about Temperance: On Fasting

Temperance, the Major Arcana card in the tarot was pulled out for me today as I did a general reading on my relationships with others and myself. The relationships with my body, my eating habits, my cravings, were highlighted for me the most, as I spent a week without fasting due to menstrual reasons, I find myself missing the rhythm of hunger and relief. A hunger that makes me listen to my body and what it craves more carefully, allowing me to balance out between what I want for myself vs. what I am allowed to consume or rather, have to. 3 dates and 2 cups of water, make sure to have electrolytes to stay hydrated, make sure to take your meds and multivitamins, make sure to avoid sugar spikes. Lots of things I have to make sure of this Ramadan to attain the weight goals I have set for myself which slowly turn into illusions in my head, as I make very slow progress. 

I made peanut butter and pistachio-filled chocolate chip cookies yesterday, and they were heavenly to have for breakfast this morning. I hate to say it, but being on my period really gives me the green pass to fuck up my rhythm, to rest a little bit more. I haven't worked out since 2 weeks, after promising to go to the gym at least twice per week. Oh well, I remember the baby steps I wrote about in my previous blog post, and today doing my laundry and trying to go to the gym while cleaning my house are the baby steps I will be taking. 

What can Temperance teach me about myself? It teaches me that despite being grounded in my truth, there will always be room for me to fuck up sometimes, as I am a survivor of violence, and that comes with a lot of implications. Temperance implies picking myself back up and re-rooting, reconnecting to it. It asks me to stay grounded, in my truth, in who I am, beyond the oppressive structures that can sometimes be disguised as liberation. Temperance opens up the space for moderation. Moderation between the pleasures of life and negotiating with your higher self on what they mean, what wounds they attempt to cover up or compensate for. 

Today, I wake up channelling the card of Temperance, as I am excited to go back to fasting tomorrow Inshallah. 

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